Hurt :(

Yes, there is a reason why I've been listening to a whole mess of Jason Mraz & Until June's older songs, thanks for those of you who asked, or already know why, for your concern.  No the reason does not involve nostalgia, I wish it were.

I started feeling this way Christmas day and it took 'till yesterday to pull the songs from my old backups, but by yesterday afternoon I needed the cooings of Mr-AZ to get me where I needed to be in my head-space. 

No I won't explain further online.  If you want to hear why these songs mean so much to me or have wanted to see me emote search for these two songs online *cough YouTube cough*. 

I expect to be mostly back to shuffle-all and my relatively neutral mildly-reactive-at-most self by the afternoon.

I'll leave you with the lyrics to Jason Mraz's You Make Me High, from the album The E Minor EP In F and Running, from the Live at Java Joe's album

Thanks for listening, Tangent, signing off
Kacey Green
Tangent's Tangents

  by Jason Mraz
        Transcribed by Bri Carerra ( lovetoloveu@hotmail.com This e-mail address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it )

Well I don't know just what I'm here for
I want more than words can describe
I've been deprived
Can you believe it
My whole world well its fallin' apart
well it falls, still it falls, well it falls apart around me

And you pick me back up, oh said you pickin' back up
oh you gonna pick me back up and you get a' me high
Said at you pick me back up, oh said you pickin' back up
oh you gonna pick me back up and you get a' me high

Cuz' I'm drinkin' all of the tears you cry
And I don't wish, to know my ending, mmmmm'
I just say I wanna know when I begun
I wanna know when I begun
I wanna know where it started from
where it all had started from

Because I feel like I am spinning,
I feel like I'm spinning
Well I feel just like I'm spinning I'm spinning around
oh oh oh oh
said I feel like I am spinning
all around this summer
and the winter comes and another storm
it falls, well it falls, said it falls apart around me

And you pick me back up, oh said you pickin' back up
oh you gonna pick me back up and you get a' me high
Oh my, my, my
Said you pick me back up, oh said you pick me back up
oh you gonna pick me back up and you get a' me high
Said I'm drinkin all of the tears you cry
breathing every breath that you sigh

I am
I'm breathing all of the tears that you cry, that you cry
all the tears that you cry, every breath that you sigh

and Running

by Jason Mraz & Ariel Quirolo Running to catch up again, jumping higher and flying more often than not Your trampoline has got holes in it but I can still see the top Let me climb aboard and sample some of next years fashion I'll wear the coat if you can put the hat on, I will wear the coat, Just let me clear my throat so I can say what's been delayed away Let me crawl into your lap and just lay here for awhile Satisfied by your seduction like a handshake would do the job Never know how long I have waited, anticipated your smile to be pressed against mine Well I feel it. (oh boy) and I'm gonna settle tight She could pour me over this sugar hill or mountain Until I get hat cool breeze, tight squeeze, I'd do it over again And I drink from her ever flowing fountain And then I wake up I comb my hair and I hurry it up But I arrive late I pack my things and I pick it up Well I put down a good amount of deodorant this morning And I found that I could drown a little bit of peace of mind Cause it's no secret that to some degree they're gonna have to see you sweat Strong enough for a man just do what you can to keep me soft and dry, I stink awhile I don't know anything about those things I almost don't wanna know anything about those things And I don't care anything about those things Cause if I did you know I'd share myself on those things, and I feel itÉ And I'll be here all night, I'll pick up the pieces and I put them back together now They may not be the right way but that's okay as long as they're all the same I wish you well that you'd get better, and I know you'll find that it's a wild world And if you had noticed well would you have thrown the towel in Before I missed out on all this love, and watch me roll away again Watch me disappear under my skin I don't believe it that things could get any worse than they did that time You must have seen it I mean how could we get lost running in a straight line Your cries of why's and why not's, may it all get back to you And trickle and dance upon your headaches, years of biting cheeks are through So I don't believe in it. But I feel it.

​Update 9 years ago as of March 2021

It took more than the afternoon, but I still love these sad songs, they make me feel something!

I don't have a full range of outward emotions as compared to people I interact with regularly, I have joy, amusement (fun or funny), mild depression, deep depression, physical pain, remorse (if I hurt someone accidentally or break something). Mostly outwardly unless you catch a brief glimpse of me emoting one of these emotions you'd think me an emotionless robot with a generally positive attitude.

Inwardly I have all normal emotions, good luck trying to get me to describe any of them in any useful fashion not only do I find the question "How are you feeling?" silly I can't verbalize the correct answer and when I can I find the person wasn't actually asking, the question was the same as "Hi, good day to you sir." Also if I do answer the question correctly and it is someone who actually cares about my emotional well-being, they assume my truthful answer is a cry for help, and they stick around crowd me. I can't get mad it shows they care, but when I want that kind of closeness I'll come crowd your space or ask you in.

Don't take offense there, keep doing this but if I return to what I was doing and don't describe something that's bothering me, nothing's wrong. If I start talking about all kinds of things under the sun, it means I appreciate your company and I may not know what you want to talk about, or I may have an idea but I'm excited to share whatever I'm studying with someone.

That's enough for now, I'm starting to ramble.

KG

Fresh new song!

Album Cover

Album Cover

I was listening to "I love to move in here" off Moby's new album

this morning on my way to my staff meeting. This song has a great beat and a nice rap session and some great bass lines, it really caught me by surprise. I listened to it about five times today and cranked up the volume in the Prius.  The lyrics were easy to learn and I don't anticipate this one playing itself out quickly, unless XM channel 26 picks it up in their rotation.  XM 26 is the station the radio is set to at work.  The fresh new song and the cool breeze combined to put me in a great mood for the day ahead.  Listen to "I love to move in here" and let me know what you think.

Update: After writing my mini-review of this track I found a place to download it for free and a review of the whole album here: http://mainstreamisntsobad.blogspot.com/2008/03/last-night-with-moby.html

Kacey Green
KaceyGreen.com
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